we could never be

she closed her phone with jerking, sad movements, and her eyes shifted, from one point to another, rapidly but without seeing anything. they were watery and pained. the expression on her face made her appear helpless. abandoned. ripped apart. she breathed difficultly, and in short gasps. she tried to speak, and eventually did. "he... he..." some minutes passed. "he's not there." she said, and the words were the beginning of a sigh, a deep one and a desperate one. she clenched her heart and closed her eyes and felt something inside her close, to be shut forever.