unsuppressed mischievous smile

the second stanza needs work, i think:

I.
while you slept,
i kissed you in the morning light,
on the lips, like you've always
wanted—but i always said no;
it’s too Intimate. too close.
i placed my mouth against
yours, trembled there,
trying to memorize
the gentleness
of your breathing and
the slope
of your nose.

II.
the air was half grey,
cold and sweet, like peace,
the handle of the door was cold
and i tried my best to stop the screen
from squeaking,
but I think you heard anyway.
i think you had known already
and thought that it was
inevitable.

III.
and in the lull of waking up
you swallowed the sudden hurt,
closed your unfocused eyes,
wished
you were still asleep.
and said goodbye
before touching your lips
with the gentle pads
of your fingers,
sensing a trace
of honesty, there,
lingering with my smell.